Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Listen to Yourself

I've said it before and I'll say it again: Yoga has changed my life. One of the many lessons I've learned from yoga is to listen to my body and myself. I tend to take on a lot. I set a lot of goals. I say yes to everything. When I hear about an event, I want to attend. When I learn about a restaurant, I want to go. I want to do everything.

I entered the lottery to run the Chicago Marathon. I signed up for two half marathons so far this year. I made plans for a trip to Louisville. I plan to visit Phoenix again in June. I want to go to Belize, Thailand, Australia, Seattle, you name it. I want to finish my book. I want to find more freelance work. I want to get in better shape. I want to teach yoga again. I want to enroll in more yoga teacher training.

Last month, I was reminded about a work-study program at my local yoga studio and I immediately wanted to do it. I filled out an application without hesitation and returned it to the studio manager within an hour. I interviewed for the position and was offered two shifts. When I took a look at my schedule, I no longer felt the same enthusiasm. Was this something I really wanted to do? Or did I just not want to miss out on something? I thought about how I'd feel during my six-month commitment. I looked at what I'd have to give up to do it. Was that something I was willing to do?

I meditated on the question for a few days. I was asked for an answer and I posed the question to myself. Should I take this on? I realized that when it came down to it, the idea of enrolling in the program didn't spark the joy it should have. It spurred more stress about trying to fit something else in, and I don't want to do that to myself. 

I realized that I'm filling time because there are three aspects of my life that are so uncertain right now, and I won't know what happens for a couple more months, or longer. I finally saw that I was trying to occupy all of my time so that I didn't have to face the feelings that surface when I think about the possible changes this year will bring. 

That's the beauty of yoga. It helped me see that all the answers I need I already know.

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Have you ever discovered an answer you were seeking by looking inward? Tell me about it in the comments!

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